The Station ~ by Robert J. Hastings

“Tucked away in our subconscious is an idyllic vision. We see ourselves on a long trip that spans the continent. We are traveling by train.

“Out the windows we drink in the passing scene of cars on nearby highways, of children waving at a crossing, of cattle grazing on a distant hillside, of city skylines and village halls.

“But uppermost in our minds is the final destination. Bands will be playing and flags waving. Once we get there our dreams will come true, and the pieces of our lives will fit together like a jigsaw puzzle.

“How restlessly we pace the aisles….waiting, waiting, waiting for the station.

“When we reach the station, that will be it,” we cry.

“When I’m 18….’

“When I buy a new 450sl Mercedes-Benz….’

“When I put the last kid through college….’

“When I have paid off the mortgage….’

“When I get a promotion….’

“When I reach the age of retirement. I shall live happily ever after.’

“Sooner or later we must realize there is no station, no one place to arrive at once and for all. The true joy of lifeis the trip, the Station is only a dream. It constantly out distances us.

“Relish the moment’ is a good motto, especially when coupled with Psalm 118:24, This is the day which the Lord hath made, we will rejoice and be glad in it.

“It isn’t the burdens of today that drive a man mad. It is the regrets over yesterday and the fear of tomorrow. Regret and fear are twin thieves who rob us of today.

“So stop pacing the aisles and counting the miles. Instead climb more mountains, eat more ice cream, go barefoot more often, swim more rivers, watch more sunsets, laugh more, cry less.

“Life must be lived as we go along. The station will come soon enough.”

Okay this is me talking now 🙂 I read this essay at a time when I most needed it. A reminder that we are always moving, always changing, always reaching for more because once one thing is accomplished we are again saying, “okay well if I just do this then I will be” We must learn to be happy where we are at in the moment. The moment is all that we have. Yesterday is over, why regret it, learn and move on. Tomorrow hasn’t come so why worry about it. Today though this very moment what will you do? How will you impact your life? How will you impact others lives? It is all in your hands. We have the true blessing of waking up each day to a brand new beginning. It is up to us how we use it. We can choose to go through the same struggles, the same worries, the same turmoil of the day before. We can choose to allow regrets and worries to haunt us and control us from day to day. OR we can lift up our chin, stick our chest out and boldly move into a new day with the conviction that we deserve better than we have been allowing ourselves. If you have to scream to get it through your thick skull then dang it scream, dance, cry whatever it is that you need to do to make yourself move through the journey to the station do it. But please, please do not sit on the bench waiting for the train to come to you because if you do everyone else will board the train without you and pass you by. You are worth the journey just get up and put one foot in front of the other. xoxo TJ



Finding My Inner Thin Girl….Take 2


Okay…yeah that was a long hiatus I know but my inner thin girl is back and ready to try this again. This past year there has been crazy changes in my life, so many I won’t even go into detail because I’m bound to just start crying and then I’ll never finish this post. Let’s just say that trials and tribulations have been the name of the game and I won!!!!

Yeah, you read right I won and I’m ready for the next set of challenges…(grr I think) lol

So, here I am back on the track of trying to find MY HEALTHY (not the worlds healthy). I believe we all have to find our own since of healthy. Not everyone is going to go on the health craze of getting rid of every single bad thing possible. And I know me, that probably won’t be me. No I won’t go vegan, or vegetarian cause dog gone it I like a nice thick steak from time to time or a juice yummy succulent hamburger. However, my healthy is more of a let me learn what to eat, when to eat it and how much to eat. I think I’m more apt to stick to it that way. This will be my only post about it here on the main page, so if you want to follow my journey or lend some encouragement you will have to check for posts on the page tab marked Finding My Inner Thin Girl, otherwise I’m just journaling for myself and making it public to hold myself accountable.

So what this all means is it’s time for a lifestyle change, no more late night snacking out of boredom or emotions. No more quick runs for fast food because I’m being too lazy to cook. And ummm yeah this will be the hard one, no more Soda every time I want a drink… L Sigh! Water has got to become my friend.

Water is my friend, water is my friend, water is my friend, and water is my friend. It really is going to be the hardest one for me.

Okay so here are my goals for the next 12 weeks….

First I am not putting a number for weight loss amount because that is where I end up getting mad and quitting. Whatever I lose is going to be enough because I am going to have tried my hardest to make it happen.

So here are my goals

  1. Drink 4-6 bottles of water a day. (I cannot drink anything else until I have drank at least 4)
  2. Eat a salad for at least one meal a day or juice a meal. ( I love veggies so this isn’t going to be an issue, I hope)
  3. No late night snacking
  4. In bed no later than 11:00 p.m.
  5. 3 days cardio
  6. 3 days stretching/yoga
  7. Keep a journal…at least 1 entry a week (That would be you guys here, so hold me accountable)

This is where I’m going to start…I’m praying this is one I can stick with. I have issues with allowing depression or emotional eating to take control and using it as an excuse. Can’t let that happen anymore. I’m getting too old and it is too important to get my health in order, besides I want my grandbabies when I finally have them to be able to brag about their gorgeous grandma LOL

Who will hopefully look something like the picture below by then … goal body lol


Okay friends so that’s that! I normally would set up my goals and say okay here it is I’ll start next week, but if I’m going to do it, I just need to do it. So tomorrow morning it’s on. My accountability partner will have my before pic, weight, and measurements before the end of the night and we will be kicking butt together, love you Ann. I have fought the battle of the bulge all my life so all prayers are appreciated. It will take divine intervention to keep me on track and keep my loved ones sane during this time lol

Xoxoxox TJ

Memorial Day!


Memorial Day, A day, the last Monday in May (originally May 30th), on which those who died in active military service are remembered.

I wonder how many people have no clue what Memorial Day even means. How many people plan their BBQ’s, camping trips, and get togethers with nothing more on their mind than a cold beer and some laughs with a few friends.

It hurts my heart to think of all the men and women who gave their lives so that we could be free, all the families who lost their son, daughter, mother, father, aunt, or uncle. I can’t fathom the feeling of seeing someone walking to my front door in full uniform to tell me the one I love will no longer return to me. Tears stream from my eyes just thinking about it and my heart is just heavy with grief for all those who’s loved ones where taken so unkindly from them.


So today, for those of you who just simply may not know, Memorial Day is a day of remembrance and a day of mourning, a day to honor our fallen, to celebrate their lives, their courage, and their love for America.  Memorial Day is not just a holiday; it’s not just a day to gather our friends and family and BBQ or go camping, in fact it’s not a holiday at all, it is a day of remembrance.

Slowly we are seeing traditional observance of Memorial Day disappear. America seems to have forgotten our traditions that make us who we are. We have pulled away from so many customs and traditions that it has become the new definition of who we are. No longer a nation built on God which at one time was our foundation, no longer a nation of the free, but a free nation lacking morals, integrity, and values. A nation that has taken for granted its freedoms, that’s allowed the foundation to crumble and that has lost sight of who we are.


How many people actually even know what the traditional observance of Memorial Day is? How many graves of our fallen hero’s do you think sit’s forgotten? How many people do you think actually fly their flags or even know the etiquette to do so?

In case you don’t know let me help you out a bit.

On Memorial Day we remember our family, our neighbors, our friends, our ancestors, those we never even knew, for giving the ultimate sacrifice, for standing in the gap, for fighting, for believing, for being our hero’s!

The way we would traditionally honor these men and women is by visiting the graves of our fallen heroes and placing flags and flowers on their graves. We would visit memorials, put in place to honor them. We would fly our flags at half-staff until noon, also flying our POW/MIA flags. We would participate in a “National Moment of Remembrance” at 3pm to pause and remember the meaning of the day and to play TAPs. As well we would renew a pledge to aid the widows, widowers, and orphans of our fallen and aid our disabled veteran’s (, 1994-2009).


Today however our focus seems to be more on, what campsite we can get. How many friends we can gather for a BBQ, what selfish ways we can entertain ourselves. It’s sad that we have come so far away from who we were founded as a nation to be.

I ask you to just do one thing, to remember and to honor our fallen soldiers. To do one thing to show love, support and encouragement to those left behind. You do not have to know them to reach out to them.


I’ll leave you with a few poems that touched my heart ….May God bless each and every one of you reading this.


FOR OUR TROOPS (both past and present)


Though I don’t know your name
And I have never seen your face
I shed tears for you.

Though my memories don’t contain a time
We shared together
I miss you.

Though we are not related
You are in my thoughts.

When I’m eating, or taking a shower, or doing housework,
I think of you, knowing how much you wish you could be at home,
Your stomach full, doing mundane chores such as cleaning your house,
Clean from a fresh shower.

Though you are at terrible risk, and perhaps may not survive,
You are NEVER ALONE, and will always be alive
If only in our spirits, hopes and memories, our dreams for your future.

There are MILLIONS of people praying for you tonight
And throughout the day.

Praying for your safety and return as a whole person
In mind, body and spirit.

We are crying because we know. We know you are scared, and lonely.
And that you’d give anything to see your family, to hug you mother, father.
Your child, sister, brother, aunt, uncle.

To be showered with love and comfort,
Instead of sand and shrapnel.

We long for you too, with an ache so desperate as to make us insane.
To touch your face, see your smile; share your laughter and your tears.

We love you so much soldiers, you cannot know. You cannot fathom the swelling of pride in our chest as we think of you.
Of your courage and your sacrifice, the hope that you can come home soon.

And those that have returned, we have not forgotten you; you are in our prayers,
That you may recover from your experience and be healed.

No matter what anyone says, not matter the reason you are there,
You are a UNITED STATES SOLDIER, and you make us PROUD!!
Every day for that beautiful flag, for our great fortune to be Americans.

There are no politics, no scandals, no mistakes, NOTHING, which can diminish the sentiment we have for you.
And even as democracy permits free speech, as it should, which some may use to make judgments or cast aspersions,
Remember always, we know you’d rather be on the couch debating it with us than spending your days trying just to stay alive.

Let no “freedom of speech’ EVER make you doubt the American people’s faith in and love for you.
We are PROUD!

I’ve never met you, but I want you to know that I love you.
I’m praying for you.
I honor you.
I’m waiting for your return.

On this Memorial Day, 2007, and every day,
Please know that you are being thought of.
GOD BLESS YOU and keep you until the day we can celebrate face to face.

©Copyright 1981 by CDR Kelly Strong, USCG (Ret).

I watched the flag pass by one day.
It fluttered in the breeze.
A young Marine saluted it,
And then he stood at ease.
I looked at him in uniform
So young, so tall, so proud,
With hair cut square and eyes alert
He’d stand out in any crowd.
I thought how many men like him
Had fallen through the years.
How many died on foreign soil?
How many mothers’ tears?
How many pilots’ planes shot down?
How many died at sea?
How many foxholes were soldiers’ graves?
No, freedom isn’t free.

I heard the sound of taps one night,
When everything was still
I listened to the bugler play
And felt a sudden chill.
I wondered just how many times
That taps had meant “Amen,”
When a flag had draped a coffin
Of a brother or a friend.
I thought of all the children,
Of the mothers and the wives,
Of fathers, sons and husbands
With interrupted lives.
I thought about a graveyard
At the bottom of the sea
Of unmarked graves in Arlington.
No, freedom isn’t free.

And on that note…God bless America and God bless you! Xoxoxo TJ


Does the Ocean Speak To You?

Does the Ocean Speak To You?

I saw this poster this morning and I thought hmmm how appropriate for me. My number one favorite place to be is the Ocean. Something about the sounds of water rushing towards me, the pound of the waves on the rocks, the smell in the air, I’m not sure but the pure power of it all and vulnerability at the same time just speaks to me.

Does the Ocean speak to you?

Sometimes If I just sit and listen my own thoughts become more clear, my vision, I can see it so much better. I get this overwhelming sense of peace that blankets me and my spirit is at rest. I just don’t know any other way to explain it.

Anyway, so today when I ran across this little picture, it reminded me again why I love the Ocean, because it is always speaking to me.

Great advice it gives too:

Be shore of yourself (Walk in confidence of who you are, know that you have a purpose even if you don’t know what it is yet, walk as if you do.)

Come out of your shell. ( Step outside your comfort zone, don’t miss out on life due to fear or self consciousness, shed that shell and dance freely into life)

Take time to coast. (Slow down, see the world around you for it’s beauty, just sit and listen)

Avoid pier pressure (This is your life, you are the one that has to live it, do not let anyone decide your future for you. Look them square in the eye and let them know “if you want to be fool you are going to do it alone.” Take control of your life.)

Sea life’s beauty (We see so much violence and hate all around us, its plastered all over the news, the tv shows, video games. Stop for one minute and find the beauty. See the good in others, and be the person to spread that beauty.)

Don’t get tide down. (Break lose your shackles, cut the ties, life has to much for you to be stuck. You only get one shot at this, do it right.)

Make Waves! (Boldly step into your purpose, stand out, if you have to tip the scales tip them, if you have to crash into the rocks like a tidal wave, baby BOOM crash!

Listen to the Ocean it’s speaking not just to me, it has great advice for you too 🙂

Have an amazing Saturday! Dare to be different, and let your light shine for all to see.

xoxoxo TJ

Thoughts on Mother’s Day

We do so often get caught up in the feel good moments that we over look those that are dealing with hurt or pain, or we simply just forget for a moment that its not all pig tails, giggles and bubbles! Love this post take a look and read for yourself.

Cauldrons and Cupcakes

“There are three musts that hold us back: I must do well. You must treat me well. And the world must be easy.”~ Albert Ellis


It’s Mother’s Day in Australia today. It’s a day when so many families will get together with their Mothers, give heartfelt gifts of appreciation, share meals and practice love and gratitude. Love and gratitude is a beautiful thing. Togetherness and belonging is the foundation of so much that is good in our society.

No doubt there will be a flood of feel-good sentiment in our media, and on facebook and twitter. But this Mother’s Day I want to acknowledge a different reality.

Today’s also a hard day for many people. I want my post to stand for you.  I want you to have a space to put your feelings. I want you to know that you are heard.

This is a post for all…

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I Am Only ME!!!

I posted this once before when I first started blogging, but I thought it worth a reshare since I was a newbie then lol 🙂 

I am only ME!


Am I still not who I have always been? 
Does a mistake in my past change who I am within?
Does it define my character?
Does it mold who I have become?
Does it Brand me for life?
Will others always judge me?
If I am a product of one bad choice, 
If I’ve no hope to be anyone else,
Then why am I here?
Why do I wake up each morning?
Why do I try to better myself?
Why do I even care?
My own personal struggles, 
My own daily trials,
My own bad choices, 
They DO NOT define me, 
They DO NOT make up the essence of my being,
They build my character, 
They teach me lessons, 
They strengthen me, 
They help me find my way, however,
They DO NOT define me.
I am today who I have always been!
Take me as I am, I have no more to offer you but ME!
In case you don’t think you know me let me introduce myself,
I’m Tammy ~ a woman who has made her fair share of mistakes, 
But that has been strengthened by each one. 
A woman who loves with all her heart, 
Who will poor herself into the right person. 
A woman who knows what she wants, knows where she is going and 
Knows who she wants in her life.
A woman who wants to try new things, take chances and 
Move into the future with a new sense of life.
A woman who CANNOT be with someone without loving them.
A woman who cries at sappy commercials or just because the 
Person next to me is crying.
I am a woman of determination,
A woman of passion,
A woman who feels deeply and loves completely.
I’m a woman who wants nothing more then to be loved for who I am.
I am a woman who needs very little to be happy. 
One who DOES NOT need a big house, fancy cars, or fine jewelry but 
One who needs God, the love a good man, a roof over my head, 
Food in my fridge, and a car to get me from point A to point B. 
Anything more then that is a blessing but it is NOT needed to make me happy.
You see I’m a simple girl, one whose heart you can make flutter 
With the simplest of gestures but whose heart breaks just as easy.
I’m a woman who would be more happy curled in front of a fire 
With someone special then being taken on an exotic vacation. 
I am ME, just as I am, I will always be.
Love me for ME!
Accept me for ME!
Take me for ME!
Like me for ME!
Want me for ME!
Because if you’re looking for someone else other then me I will most definitely 
Disappoint you!


Tammy Jordan
Jan. 11, 2009

I Realize That I Am An Insignificant Blurb

I realize that I am an insignificant blurb on your radar in life. However, I am a significant blurb on someone else’s and most importantly I know I am significant!

I realize you do not see my beauty and that’s okay, because someone else see’s not only my beauty but my significance. Again most importantly I see my beauty!

I realize you don’t think I’m important enough to spend time talking with or hanging out with, but the wonderful thing is there is someone else who does. And like I said before, most importantly I love spending time with me and no one can love me better than me!

I realize that you judge my every decision and move, that you look down your nose at me because I don’t dress like you, drive the same car, have the same job, or wear a size 2. That’s OK! Why? Because there is someone who see’s me for me without judgement and loves me unconditionally. Most importantly I do not judge myself, I own my mistakes and I learn from them.

I realize what you think of me DOES NOT change who I am and if you don’t like what you see I am okay with you turning and walking away from me.

See what I realize is, what I think and feel about myself is far more important then what you think of me. Someone who hasn’t even taken the time to know me.

So be on your way, get out the door I don’t need that negativity in my life. I send you along with my best wishes and prayers that you will have a fulfilled life and get just what you give.

That’s right bye bye…I hold No resentment! No anger! No judgement! Just go!


P.S. To those of you reading this…this is not written to anyone specific but if it applies to you and you can’t see my worth well then…get to steppin!!! (I say this with love)