I have struggled all my life with my weight; it has weighed me down (no pun intended) my entire life. Guilt, shame, anger, depression, has followed me like one of the plagues of the Bible. I have shed many a tears and called myself many terrible, mean, and disparaging words. I have spent most my life trying to make fun of myself before someone else could do it for me. I have made excuse after excuse after excuse to everyone and anyone who was willing to accept it.
The thing is, it is tiring being FAT, living a double life, feeling the pain every day and still placing a smile on my face like nothing bugs me. It is exhausting lugging this body around day in and day out trying to keep up with my kids. And it is emotionally draining hiding all the negative feelings that run through my head every day to make sure I don’t make anybody else uncomfortable with me.
Sooooooo….it’s time to change! Time to find my inner thin girl who is hiding under layer upon layer of fat. You know that girl, the one who everybody sees her face but not her body. I say this because you always hear, “ohhhh honey you have such a beautiful face.” Well it is time to release her from her hiding place and see just what she is made of.
My goal for 2012 is to find a healthier way of living that I can live with and make that lifestyle change. I will not diet! I’ve gone that route and yes I’ve lost and yes I’ve gained it right back plus some. So no diets it’s all about the lifestyle change and that starts TODAY.
My plan is to workout 5 days a week for no less than 30 minutes eventually building to 90 minutes. I will work out Monday thru Friday. I will also eliminate pop from my diet for the first month completely except on my birthday Feb. 3 . There will be no eating after 7:30 p.m. and I will drink at least 8 glasses of water a day. This is the plan to start with.
I have to be the change I want to see in my life! It is time to bet on ME and know I will win!
There is one more thing I would like to do to help encourage myself but also others out there who are trying to lose weight. If you have a weight loss success story that you would like to share I would love to hear it, you can email your story to firstname.lastname@example.org and put in the subject line of the email Finding my thin girl. Then with your permission I will create a page on my blog where I can post your success stories with a link to your blog. These successes do not have to mean you have reached your ideal weight they just have to be about the success you have had on your journey back to you.
I’m excited about this new adventure and can’t wait to see a year from now how it all has transpired. Thank you for your support.