I am going to be down right honest with you, know holding back, no sugar-coating, just the plain simple truth! I am popped, my steam boat has lost all its steam but I am as happy as a puppy with a new toy to play with. I’m not sure right now how my bills are going to get paid, how my cars going to get fixed, or where grocery money is coming from, but what I know for a fact is that God is at work in my life in a powerful way and it is exhilarating and exhausting all at the same time.
A few years ago I had no clue what direction my life would be going. I had no confidence, and really no dreams but now WOW!!! I can’t get my mind to shut down long enough to sleep more than a couple of hours at a time and then I’m awake with a new idea or thought. I tell you it’s tiring to think this much lol but I am so happy.
I have an entirely new perspective on life! I was talking to my husband today and surprised myself when I said to him, “honey we need to learn to live on less.” I was completely serious. I want to live on less, I want to be able to give more. It is beyond a shadow of a doubt the most fulfilling thing I have ever done in my life.
We were watching the Secret Millionaire last night on the DVR and I was crying like a baby because of the heart of an 8-year-old boy who took it upon himself at the age of 6 to start helping the homeless. This young man blessed my heart incredibly, he gave of himself so selflessly. His play time was sorting through donations to take to a preschool that taught homeless children and making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for the homeless people in the park.
We could all learn a lesson from this young man, he boldly walked up to each homeless person introduced himself, shock their hand and handed them a sandwich. This boy has the heart of God!!! He truly blessed me. If at 6 years old he can conceive this idea (I believe the name was Mirror of Love) and at 8 be living in his purpose then at 37 years old shame on me if I’m not!!!
I am giddy to say that the millionaire gave the young man $15,000 for his non-profit and at the age of 8 he is filing paperwork to make his non-profit legit. It just goes to show when we give from our heart with the expectation of nothing in return God will bless us richly.
With a heart of love and compassion an 8-year-old boy taught me that happiness does not come from the material things, the places we can go, the parties we can throw, the big houses, the nice cars, happiness comes from within, it’s a choice to love, and to give of yourself completely. There is no attachments, no only if’s, it’s a choice we make every day to get up and put someone else before ourselves.
I can’t wait until the day our non-profit is up and running full-fledged and we can work with these young men and women but until then I will continue to do what I can for who I can and enjoy every minute of it. I finally have a dream that is all my own, a dream that God birthed within me and I can lay down each night with that dream and know that when I wake I have a purpose, a God-given purpose and with that purpose I will move through each day with the expectation that God will provide.