I find myself wanting more and more to grow closer to God. To understand not just the scripture but what is not written. I have been in a serious time of transition the last couple months. The path I thought I was supposed to be on completely took another route and sadly it didn’t end well. But that is not why I am writing today. I am writing today because during this time where I have felt broken and hurt God has shown me bits and pieces of my life. He has brought the picture into focus for me and encouraged me that the path I am now on is in this season exactly where he wants me. He showed me that my life was out of focus because it wasn’t in balance. I was giving all of myself in one area and neglecting others.
In all of this, I have grown closer to God and my desire to know Him more comes from a place within myself I didn’t know existed. You see I’ve always had a relationship with God, but this desire is something deeper. I haven’t put my finger on a way to explain it just yet, but it feels like emptiness inside me that only He can fill. Have you ever been so thirsty that you just can’t stop drinking, you pick up one glass and guzzle it and then another and another until you fill so full you are about to burst? That is where I am in my walk with God. I want more and more until I am over flowing with Him.
I’m tired of simply trying to live His word, I want to eat breath and sleep His word. I want it to fill every pore, every muscle, and every piece of fiber. I want it to pour through me like liquid and to seep from my skin so that His glory shines through me.
Life has never been as good as it is right now and it is because my eyes are on God. I am not fearful of the days ahead of me because I know the path I walk today is the one he laid before me. I do not worry about what people think of me because He is all that matters. I am only filled with excitement for what He has in store for me and my family. I am thankful for everything that has been happening in my life the good and the bad, because it has all brought me to this point, brought me closer to God, closer to my kids and closer to my husband. It has all taught me to hold my family closer than any other because in the end they are the ones who will always be there. Most importantly it has taught me that the more I seek God in my life and remove the focus from me to Him, the clearer my path will become and the more whole I will become.